To my love Md. s.... I love u for all my life.. you've been supporting me all this while.. and watever shit it is.. I'm all alone today.. Shit.. I'm confuzzed in my life.. Where can i go? what can i do?? What will our future be?? How long will our marriage last?? When will be having a child?? I'm struggling in my life.. Should i go back to start a part time?? I got a list to do by this april.. I need money.. I need to buy a notebook so i can start working on my internet job.. I need it so i can tell my stories in blog.. Go to skype.. Basically its more for job.. And by this coming salry i will need:-
1. I need abt S$300/- to buy the pdt for my internet job.
2. I need abt S$346.15 to buy the notebook
3. I need abt S$200/- to enrol on my teaching course (as i wan2 upgrade myself and this is one in a lifetime opportunity to achieve my goal and dream.
4. As usual i need to give my mum $450/-
5. My S$160.24 handphone bills... Arghh!!!
And some more my daily expenditures.. My husband is schooling.. His bus fares, food.. OMG!!! Wen will god stop torturing me like this..?? I need a loan.. But 1 got 1 good gossip news.. And i'm not sure bout it.. Some of my colleages says that there'll be bonus coming.. If it comes, that's good.. But if it isn't then i'm fucking hell dead.. Haiz